Don't Be Satisfied
How many times has someone said to you "why can't you just be satisfied with what you have"? How many times have you asked yourself the same question? Do you find yourself stuck in a never ending spiral with no end in sight?
As I sit down at my laptop. I find myself replaying these questions and many more. As I approach the last day of May my goals I thought that were important, are no longer important. Back in February, on a Friday morning I thought my biggest goal was winning that months challenge where I was working out. To hear me just say that goal it seems a little selfish. That I can't deny. It is very selfish. In other ways it had and has a meaning to me that only I can truly understand.
It wasn't until a "quick" trip to our local Dollar General store on that cold February night and a God lead conversation with my friend Sabrina, that I got in my car to head home and realized WOW I have missed the mark. I have missed it by a long shot.
My entire reason for this meaningless goal to the rest of the world was this. February marked 6 months where my life changed as I knew it. February was 6 months from when I found myself asking God for one more chance at life. What I had failed to do is realize God gave me more than another chance at being a mom, sister, daughter, friend and the list goes on. He gave me another chance at life and not missing the God moments and the chance to change history.
See I had and have more than hit my goal. I had completed 2 months of workouts successfully (now 4). I get to wake up every morning and take my boys to school every day, and then go to work with my cousins husband Kevin where we do decorative concrete. I get to work every week with the youth in our small yet mighty church. Something I never imagined was meant for me. I look at what I get to do everyday and I look back to that day, that moment when I thought the changes in my life were not fair. The obstacles of the past 18 months were not fair. And then I look at what I get to do! God gave me that second chance not to go back to the life I was living. Which I have to admit was crazy, hectic and 90 to nothing. He gave me a second chance to never be satisfied with the plans He has for me. To never stop wanting more of Him and less of me.
We live in what I call the Walmart world. Where if we need something boom go to Walmart and you get it. So when we have life problems and we find ourselves praying for answers and direction
We think we should have answers NOW. I wanted answers NOW. I wanted my old life back now. I wanted to be able to run 90 to nothing with no end in sight now. Why would anyone want what broke them back? Why would I want what broke me and could have killed me back? I wanted it back because it was all I knew. I didn't realize that 9 months ago was not the end but the beginning.
Often when difficult things come our way we want to run. I wanted to run! But the amazing thing is Jesus wants to deliver us during the hard times. Its the fire that refines and the fire that purifies. You have to embrace the hard times! I had to learn to embrace the hard times. Once we learn this we will see that God is about to make His name famous. No matter what we go through in life, His grace is sufficient!
God doesn't always change the circumstances but He always has a purpose in the circumstances and His triumph will prevail in the circumstances.
We are marked by majesty
We are fearfully and wonderfully made
We are a miracle
You are someone incredibly special
You are a miracle
We are a miracle you and me
The God of the heavens is the one who fastens you together
God wants to do something great in YOUR life! That great testimony comes from great trial. Only He can bring the solution!
Gods victory dances are sweet
Psalm 30:11-12
As I sit down at my laptop. I find myself replaying these questions and many more. As I approach the last day of May my goals I thought that were important, are no longer important. Back in February, on a Friday morning I thought my biggest goal was winning that months challenge where I was working out. To hear me just say that goal it seems a little selfish. That I can't deny. It is very selfish. In other ways it had and has a meaning to me that only I can truly understand.
It wasn't until a "quick" trip to our local Dollar General store on that cold February night and a God lead conversation with my friend Sabrina, that I got in my car to head home and realized WOW I have missed the mark. I have missed it by a long shot.
My entire reason for this meaningless goal to the rest of the world was this. February marked 6 months where my life changed as I knew it. February was 6 months from when I found myself asking God for one more chance at life. What I had failed to do is realize God gave me more than another chance at being a mom, sister, daughter, friend and the list goes on. He gave me another chance at life and not missing the God moments and the chance to change history.
See I had and have more than hit my goal. I had completed 2 months of workouts successfully (now 4). I get to wake up every morning and take my boys to school every day, and then go to work with my cousins husband Kevin where we do decorative concrete. I get to work every week with the youth in our small yet mighty church. Something I never imagined was meant for me. I look at what I get to do everyday and I look back to that day, that moment when I thought the changes in my life were not fair. The obstacles of the past 18 months were not fair. And then I look at what I get to do! God gave me that second chance not to go back to the life I was living. Which I have to admit was crazy, hectic and 90 to nothing. He gave me a second chance to never be satisfied with the plans He has for me. To never stop wanting more of Him and less of me.
We live in what I call the Walmart world. Where if we need something boom go to Walmart and you get it. So when we have life problems and we find ourselves praying for answers and direction
We think we should have answers NOW. I wanted answers NOW. I wanted my old life back now. I wanted to be able to run 90 to nothing with no end in sight now. Why would anyone want what broke them back? Why would I want what broke me and could have killed me back? I wanted it back because it was all I knew. I didn't realize that 9 months ago was not the end but the beginning.
Often when difficult things come our way we want to run. I wanted to run! But the amazing thing is Jesus wants to deliver us during the hard times. Its the fire that refines and the fire that purifies. You have to embrace the hard times! I had to learn to embrace the hard times. Once we learn this we will see that God is about to make His name famous. No matter what we go through in life, His grace is sufficient!
God doesn't always change the circumstances but He always has a purpose in the circumstances and His triumph will prevail in the circumstances.
We are marked by majesty
We are fearfully and wonderfully made
We are a miracle
You are someone incredibly special
You are a miracle
We are a miracle you and me
The God of the heavens is the one who fastens you together
God wants to do something great in YOUR life! That great testimony comes from great trial. Only He can bring the solution!
Gods victory dances are sweet
Psalm 30:11-12
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