MSU Bears Support Autism
2016......
20 years ago I was 16 years old. I was a sophomore in high school and my biggest worry was gas money, school, sports, band and work.
I have asked myself time and time again if I could go back what would I do differently. My answer today, is simple. Nothing.
Sure I wish I would not have done this or that. And I wish I would have studied more, listened more, and been more. But in reality if I was to change the past, I would not be where or who I am today. I would not have my 2 amazing boys, I would not have hit rock bottom in my life and found the strength to get back up. I would not have found Jesus at the ripe age of 26.
I have realized over the past few years, wishing, hoping, the could have beens or the should have beens. They are all just that.
As we approach this coming Saturday I find myself a little on the emotional side. Not a trait I like to advertise about myself, but I am getting better in regards to sharing my emotions.
This school year has been extremely hard on my youngest, and to be honest our entire family. Just last week I had a conversation with Hunters councilor that he see's to help him with some his weakness in regards to his "abilities". Hunter has what they classify as very high functioning autism. Many know it as Asperger s. For Hunter his diagnoses is not simple. And I would not expect it to be. After all he is my child.
Back to the school year... What people, and when I say people I mean the students and the parents of the students who do the bullying fail to realize is they are bullying an entire family. I would lie to you if I said I was not exhausted from the melt downs, the endless meetings with school and being told you need proof, being told we cant really do anything and on and on and on. Then you bring them proof, and it happens to be against a student whose parents might play a large role in the community. And the parents want you to feel bad because it is now on there child's record. Bullying... But let me ask this. What about my child? What about my family? What about the life long affects that will forever be with my son, both my sons. Has the bullying gotten better, a little. But why did it take almost an entire school year to do so?
Now back to Saturday. Saturday we will welcome, we will embrace and we will love on every child who is somewhere on the spectrum at the MSU Bears Baseball game! This is there day! There day to shine! There day to be special and not special needs but SPECIAL!
So as I prepare for Saturday, and all the small details I will cry. I will cry not because I am sad but because I am thankful that for a moment, my son will stand on the mound where many great STL Cardinal Pitchers have stood and throw out the first pitch. And for a moment it will not be about what he cant do, or that he is awkward or different. But it will be about what HE CAN DO!
And it reminds me to be thankfully for what I can do and not get caught up on what I cant! To all our sponsors, supporters and prayer warriors for this event thank you!!! To MSU thank you for partnering with us! I look forward to watching the event grow every year and one day selling out the stadium! Until then... I am going to enjoy the moment Saturday! and i am going to smile!!!
Jules
20 years ago I was 16 years old. I was a sophomore in high school and my biggest worry was gas money, school, sports, band and work.
I have asked myself time and time again if I could go back what would I do differently. My answer today, is simple. Nothing.
Sure I wish I would not have done this or that. And I wish I would have studied more, listened more, and been more. But in reality if I was to change the past, I would not be where or who I am today. I would not have my 2 amazing boys, I would not have hit rock bottom in my life and found the strength to get back up. I would not have found Jesus at the ripe age of 26.
I have realized over the past few years, wishing, hoping, the could have beens or the should have beens. They are all just that.
As we approach this coming Saturday I find myself a little on the emotional side. Not a trait I like to advertise about myself, but I am getting better in regards to sharing my emotions.
This school year has been extremely hard on my youngest, and to be honest our entire family. Just last week I had a conversation with Hunters councilor that he see's to help him with some his weakness in regards to his "abilities". Hunter has what they classify as very high functioning autism. Many know it as Asperger s. For Hunter his diagnoses is not simple. And I would not expect it to be. After all he is my child.
Back to the school year... What people, and when I say people I mean the students and the parents of the students who do the bullying fail to realize is they are bullying an entire family. I would lie to you if I said I was not exhausted from the melt downs, the endless meetings with school and being told you need proof, being told we cant really do anything and on and on and on. Then you bring them proof, and it happens to be against a student whose parents might play a large role in the community. And the parents want you to feel bad because it is now on there child's record. Bullying... But let me ask this. What about my child? What about my family? What about the life long affects that will forever be with my son, both my sons. Has the bullying gotten better, a little. But why did it take almost an entire school year to do so?
Now back to Saturday. Saturday we will welcome, we will embrace and we will love on every child who is somewhere on the spectrum at the MSU Bears Baseball game! This is there day! There day to shine! There day to be special and not special needs but SPECIAL!
So as I prepare for Saturday, and all the small details I will cry. I will cry not because I am sad but because I am thankful that for a moment, my son will stand on the mound where many great STL Cardinal Pitchers have stood and throw out the first pitch. And for a moment it will not be about what he cant do, or that he is awkward or different. But it will be about what HE CAN DO!
And it reminds me to be thankfully for what I can do and not get caught up on what I cant! To all our sponsors, supporters and prayer warriors for this event thank you!!! To MSU thank you for partnering with us! I look forward to watching the event grow every year and one day selling out the stadium! Until then... I am going to enjoy the moment Saturday! and i am going to smile!!!
Jules
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